talking to myself....

is fun... but boring... you see... at least i won't interrupt myself and won't make judgements about my personality from what i say... but you don't really get a response... its like talking to a wall... or worse.... coz u get these thoughts in your head that says... what if other ppl think i am crazy, talking to myself like that.... i cant believe that in 4 more yrs... i turn 20... oh! oh! where have all the time went? crap... and i havent achieved anything...

havent won aything.. who wants to be fourth, or third or second... when i talk of winning... i wanna be no. 1... maybe i lack self-discipline.... yeah look at me... wah! i think its very hard to get along with so many ppl and have so many achievements...

so wad if i am first in klass? it doesnt have the kick anymore... you noe... no competition... but... i like give up already.... so many competitions i entered.... all didnt win, one... so sian... i noe... never give up, u say... but u would also feel disheartened if likedat right? haiyah... must persevere! and have more discipline! now... i go study ss... tmml got test