yay!

i got a1 for malay o level. actually, i did not know what to expect. when cikgu announced only got one a1, my trepidation started. i tot, sure rafidah. but he announced my name. hee. poor raf. she got a2 and she cried coz pressure from parents. imran too. tht one really sad case. work so hard, then got b4 only. izyanti too. izyanti sort of gave up on her malay which is sad. because i believe she can. she gave up on her amaths too. hmm. ephipany. but i'd rather not put it here. lest i incur the wrath of he-who-shall-not-be-named.

i am fat. i truly realised that. today. all the while i have been thinking that i am just chubbier than normal and we'll have the situation under control. i don't freakin care about wad other ppl think but i feel uncomfortable in my weight. its hard to walk. hard to prance. hard to gelek. hard to spin about. (ref to physics chapter on inertia) henceforth, i shall go on my conquest to lose 5kgs by the end of this year and another 5 by next march. you cant rush these things. summore i very busy. run here run there. i wish i had more physical activity. but no one wans to do it with me. swimming, badminton, basketball. i am always 'on' if i dun have anything happening that i can reschedule. i even ponteng my art to go swimming. hmm. hmmmmpht.

noooooooo..... i have joined the ranks of blubbery semicomatose organisms. i am fat. oh well. at least i am insulated.