an attempt.

today, in this entry, i shall attempt to write a long entry on one topic. one single topic. if u realised, my blog entries all are quite short (albeit abit controversial) and resembles the tittering of a distracted bird. you know, like random thoughts here and there jumps here and there with no direction just like myself. so today, in this entry, i shall dedicate this entry to myself and be narcissistic and talk about myself.

today, i stand at a forked road. not literally, of course, but to speak metaphorically, the paths all have their vertigos and cliffs, deadly cliffs. i am obviously writing about "is there life after o's?" this has been the object of my discussion for many many entries and i am going to continuously search for my answer till i find it or someone decides it for me. yesh, i am terribly indecisive.

so lets look at the issue of "where will i spend my first three months next year?" there are, of course, two choices, the jc road or the no jc road. lets talk about jc first. at the jc, i can probably get more exercise and can learn more stuff, not to mention meeting new people *winks at karla* BUT! if i go to jc, dont we have to get books? 3 months you noe. i dont think those books are cheap either. if i dont go for jc, maybe i'll go look for a job. so i'll either rot at home or go to work, earning muchos-wanted moolah as i do. so this issue of going for the first three months depend on my real decision, where to go after 3 months?
you see, if i plan to take the straight road to the jc, then, i tink its worthwhile to buy the not-so-cheap books. but the problem with jc, is that u have to end up in uni. if u break down halfway, ppl go "a levels? so?". now, if i do my poly thing, when i get my diploma, can straightaway go work. not stuck like an 'a' level cert holder.

theres also another issue of the subjects that i have to choose. i am definitely not going into languages or humanities, because of obvious reasons. the problem with me is, i like all the subjects, sure, i may suck at it, but i love reading about topographical stats or how hitler mass murdered the jews or how a person can dissect a piece of literary text to clinical precision. but i do realise that liking reading about these stuff does not equate to wanting to do that one thing for the rest of my life. but then again, who would hire you to sit in an office and solve maths problems like finding a formula for prime numbers or if all even numbers can be expressed by the sum of two prime numbers. and who would want a worker wasting chemicals by finding out all the colours of the precipitate available. or someone is already holding that job. perhaps i should set up a business. its all so competitive nowadays, everyone wants to be an entreprenuer. business are appearing like vultures after new dead meat. hear ye hear ye, here is a buck to be made, quickly set up a counter and sell your wares. the power of the MNCs and other giants are apparent everywhere. anyone can go into F&B or retail, all u need is some capital. from auntie to the most sophisticated ladies. heck, even the disabled are jumping into the bandwagon. of course, this is not wrong. wad is the world thriving on, but each other? sometimes, i think hitler is right. self dependence the best. so... i am getting tired. shall stop here. for now. apparently, i have strayed FAR from my topic: where to go for three months? i digress. too much, actually. bah.