an apology.

to everyone out there.

i am sorry if i had irritated you by asking you incessant questions that make u feel incompetent.

i am sorry if i had inconvenienced you by asking you to check some stuff out so that we can be sure that something is definitely going to happen.

i am sorry if i had bothered you by worrying if some event will happen or not.

i do this alot. i meant the worrying. oh well. i am such a worry wart. i worry about this and that, big or small. yeah, well, blame myself for that and well, i cant change it.

i have been known to irritate the hell out of some people but, well. one cant please all, can they? its amazing you noe. i feel so undecided right now. got a bubbling cauldron inside of me right now, where all the feelings are being stirred around by beings of unknown origin.

for example, i have terribly tried to persuade some people to go for that outing but they flatly refused to hear me out. i know that their prescence is kinda important, because it IS a class outing. but yet, i know that other people cant be bothered with the attendance as long as they are having fun. it strikes me odd that such a thing would happen.

i mean, i noe that my prescence(or lack of it, for that matter) wouldnt make much of a difference during the 05 party but i went after realising that even if mingna wasnt there, people would be a little lost but still the party would go on. so my depression quickly lifted. coz i decided that i would have fun no matter what. so, me, being responsible and all that, brought badminton rackets and my bike so that i wouldnt feel aimless. oh yeah. i din feel aimless alright, but i did feel exploited since people started borrowing my stuff and not even bothering to return it to the place where they took it from.

i am sorry, but the 'borrowing and returning" thing is really big with me. for example, evon and raf! i still have your vcd! when can i pass it to you back?

i am sorry also, for being terrribly punctual for appointments outside and thus, cannot stand tardiness. the times when i am late is when i really cant help it, like the stoopid train take 9 minutes to reach the bloody station. i really really cannot stand late people. but of course, i ont fume so much, coz itll really really spoil my mood.

i think i have really kept my temper in check. i mean, i am sure u guys haven seen me bursting out since sec 2 rite? haha. people tell me i am scary when i am angry. who isnt? oh well..

i think my father has been ordering me around too much. oh well. i think i am a pacifist. because i havent rebelled against my father.

my father seems to think that i am galivanting around with nothing to do. yeah, well maybe. nothing official to do, like school work. but i have to clean my room ( forever needs cleaning, because we dont have adequate space for organisation thus everything is strewn about) and planning to do.

well lets see, he asked me to handle the pda thing, then ask me to go to imm so early to get a free gift( i mean, cant it wait another day?) then go to a 'hotspot' to check if the pda connection is working which i dutifully did. i dunno. it seems that my father pushes me around alot. but wad can i do? i am on his payroll, so to speak.

oh well.

i realise that i dont like reading teensy fonts so i have decided to write big big. if u people find anything irritating about this blog, besides my face and the contents of my day-to-day-journal tag me, because i really hate to go to some sites where to have to scroll here and there trying to figure out where the journal is and where the tag board is. if you think this site sucks, well, tag me about it and we'll talk about your feelings. si?

i am sorry that today's post is unsubstantiated. it is probably as entertaining as observing ms chong's personalized blinking on a sleepy, wet, monday morning. or as entertaining as, hmm, the vp's recitation of the national day message. yeah, well, you get wad i mean.