paranoia

ghastly. thats my new word. THE new word. hmm. ghastly, dont u say? haha.

anyway, am feeling rather pms-sy nowadays. am walking around with pads and extra undies in case i get caught unawares. yeap. too much information for you. but nonetheless, i shall perform for my audience.

talk cock.

anyway, there is alot of things i wanna do. i wanna get or i wanna achieve. but frankly, when i think about it, we are so small. as an individual, u are like so small compared to the people in the whole world. as if thats not big enough, our capabilities as a human being are so limited. too cold, we freeze. too hot, we are roasted. without air or food or water, we are toast. we are so vulnerable. furthermore, people in the state of panic is terrifying. its like watching SAW, watching that guy eventually panic and cutting off his own foot. ( i figured that if u havent watched it by now, you wont watch it till your own child hits 16, so i spoil)

anyway, thinking like this terrifies me. to comfort my overjourneying imagination, i try to think small. only this time i go to that extreme and wonder why things look so separate. when you are the size of an atom, i dont think u can breathe. i mean, those molecules of air are bigger than u are, for God's sake. and looking at my own body, i terrify myself by thinking about the different molecules in my body and wonder wad i would find if i were to walk on the surface. u noe, all those talk about parasites and micro organisms living on our body. u reaaaaaly wonder. or at least i do. wonder, that is.

so who says you need scary movies to scare yourself? just need an overactive imagination. say... this is how paranoids are born, no? AAAAaaaaaH!