of things

i think i am going to write a super long entry, in view of the fact that i havent been writing much, have i?

for the past few days, i have been sleep-deprived, exhausted, dehydrated and had my feelings thrown about like a paper ball...

wait.

thats wad happens to me ALL the time. only, i experienced the intensity of these all to the most extreme in my whole life during this whole period.(wad a confusing sentence)

anyway, for almost the whole week, i was waking up at 5 am to reach school at 630 for soccer training. this week was no joke. i reached home beyond 830pm everyday. which is why waking up at 5 am is such a big issue. i mean, i had no time to rest and stuff. blardie tiring.

but its damn fun larh. hahahah. got smthng to complain about. and i actually like the feeling of being so busy, there isnt a moment to stop and get bored.

yep. thats me. as contradictory as hell.

wahahahaha.

anyway, school draws to a close for a week. and as the week came to an end, i realise that i cannot take anything for granted. the ppl u see today can just disappear just like dat. relationships can just disintegrate in a matter of seconds. even solid things that we can touch and feel and 'depend' upon can *zap*-gone-.

this comes about because i noe i am going to miss the class and ppl i have contact with now. ppl are going off, some grudgingly, some almost desperate to leave the gates of nj. the people i've met have been very inspiring. i've seen many kinds of people and i realise that i am really indecisive: i cannot decide if i like or dislike that person. but, its all for the better, rite?

the people i've met, those in my classes, those in the ccas and random ppl i just noe all have been an eye opener. i am not going to become sappy and say i'll miss u all since its such a ~duh~ thing and even an idiot would noe that. but i do realise that these ppl have been a challenge. they have tested my tolerance, my temper and sometimes, made me question my own principles. its been really fun.

being a teenager is both exciting yet terrible. come on, we are neither here nor there. not an adult, not a minor. some of us are not boy nor girl. alot of lines between black and white have become a totally grey area. some things that we could nvr imagine doing, sometimes become a norm for us. its kinda weird.

and i realise that being in the middle is not so bad after all. do we care if ppl look at us in the mrt because we are hilariously impersonating a certain teacher? do u? some of us choose to live on the edge. some get new experiences everyday. (YOU LEARN SOMETHING NEW EVERYDAY!) for charlene, my classmate, is must have been an experience navigating her way through the SMRT system, since she rarely takes public transport.

yep. and i finally found someone who thinks similarly to me and its so fun to have ppl agreeing with u when u talk. and then, having comments and add-ons to further reinforce my view. the ppl i meet come from different moulds. the ij girls dont know wads a mat (the human one) and the bp girls always walk around with their shirts untucked. a friend of a friend once said that all bp girls were pretentious. a hasty generalization, since the only bp girls he noes are NOT pretentious and only represent the minority of the bp population.

as long as we are wearing our sec sch uniforms, there'll always be an discrimination.

***my father just asked me to learn visual basic programming. i'm screwed***

anyway. i am going to attempt to complete my new blog template by tonight! u'll see a spanking new layout. and hopefully, it'll work out.

lets see... i shall shower, then edit photos, then do html, then upload photos, then update blog template. or maybe i'll just finish the editing first.

tata

if at first u dont succeed, FIND ANOTHER WAY, then, try again. dont be idiot and do the wrong thing over and over again...