this heavy feeling in my heart...

i feel restless. theres so many things i should be doing now. top priority: clean up. clean up wad? the desk (organizing stuff sucks), the bed, the room. generally everything. i also should be doing up the html for this stupid blogsite which attracts zero readership. i should also be reorganizing the photos i have on this computer that i had haphazardly chucked onto the desktop in a hurry.

yes! things to do. shit!

and i need money. like loads of money. harharhar. i noe... but its really an emergency. i have no clothes to wear out. i realise that for any banana outing, i would wear almost similar stuff and sumtimes recycle stuff. maaaaaan. i REALLY NEED more clothes. and footwear. maaan. i dont have a decent pair of girlish sandals since the maid kapo-ed them and decent pair of slippers(the ones i wore today is my sis's) of my own.

and speaking about clothes, i would invariably talk about my body.... which i am constantly in conflict with. society always dictate wad we ought to do or have. dont u think so? suddenly, u see advertisements screaming "have a skinny body! u'll be the envy of other women! u'll be the most sucessful woman everybody wants to shag! u WILL feel great!" (okay, maybe i was a little bit blunt there, but really, u pick up a woman's magazine nowadays and wad do u see? "new positions to spice up ..." or "sensual delights for the two of you"






WAD THE SHIT










can u imagine how the earlier generation would have reacted if this happen during their time? BOYCOTT THE DIRTY MAGAZINE!

haha. so coming back to the point... society is reflected in the media. u see... the media caters to the majority of society. they have a target group, and for that target group, they would have a specific agenda. like in this case, women------>feeling great(with or without men).... yup...

i dont think u all get me. its kinda confusing for u all. i feel like drawing a mindmap for u all, since my mind doesnt think linearly... it goes up, down,left, right or nowhere at all. (oooh! someone likes to say now-where instead of the more conventional no-where)

SEE! i did it again!


hahaha.. today, i went for training in the morning. ran 2.4 for warm-up then did ball drills. quite slack ah... except for the warmup... WHO DOES 2.4KM FOR WARM-UP? SIAO AH.... then on monday ran 3point-effing-6-km for warm-up. SIAO LARH. (and i am blardie amazed that i actually did it... ) -.-

THEn! climbed over the gate to go for breakfast! with the bball girls. yay! hurray for cheap sausage mcmuffin! and milo!

i love milo! do u all love milo?

i love milo! when i was a baby, my father told me i wouldnt drink milk unless it came naturally(ehem-ehem) or spiked with that chocolate powder most of us grew up drinking. (drinking powder? oh shit. my language going down the drain again)

today, at breakfast, i had milo. then for dinner, i went to macs again and had a LARGE milo... i tink for early morning breakfast i had the 'milo fuze with cereals'...

man... thats alot of milo for one day... i feeel like having that milo fuze for supper... hmmm... hurhur... i wonder when i will start having milo running in my veins. and ateries. and arioles. and bronchi. ugh...

hahah... enough for today... i think its enough for ppl to start tagging me... come on! get ur fingers zapping and tag me!