aspirations and perspirations

i am so screwed. i am supposed to be doing my math rite now. a pathetic attempt to catch up on my work, but an attempt nonetheless.

so i was talking to farah, rite... complaining about my current state of moneylessness now caused by adeline. she makes me buy stuff when we go out. so today, after a day of painting in school, we went to taka, to go look at kino and the new art friend. (at this point, i would like to mention that I LOVE ART FRIEND... even though they suck money... alot of money.)

i saw a lot of stuff that i would love to have. being with ade and XIAO DING DANG!(who is dingxiao, for the uninformed) makes me want to have the skill to draw manga. because they both can draw manga characters and i feel sad whenever i see them drawing. in fact, i feel like vomiting blood.

the thing is, while we were a-walking around taka, i had this great vision... of creating a whole manga series based on my friends. it started with the invention of butterfly boy. now, as we all know, butterfly boy is a well known nickname given to our dear Samuel, who is my classmate and fellow art clubber. ya. so i was already creating the character in my head.. the hair, the specs, his poses and his lips. why lips? u may ask. well.. its because his lips are going to be slightly fairer then his face which is quite tanned from chasing butterflies in the scorching sun when he was a kid. (look.. its a la batman... ) then i went on to create another character...

but the thing is....

i cant bloody draw!

aiyeeeee! its really frustrating me now. like, sometimes, i have these wonderful costumes and clothes ideas... but i can't put them down on paper coz i cant draw for nuts!!!!

OH THE SHAME!! THE SHAME!!!

*runs and hides in a corner while bringing this wireless keyboard along.*

and the markers... the calligraphy pens and the.... *sob*... sketchbooks.... and the... gah!!!! paintbrushes. i tell u. it was painful. it was torture. it was hell.

*choke*sob*



bleeds.