fear

i fear that i may turning into a zombie.

no... not because i am rotting (decomposing) while i am still alive. no. wait a minute. i AM rotting(stoning).

its just that my life is getting sort of mundane. humans may love routine. but i am not entirely human, am i? i have proof that some people think that i am inhumane.

okay. bad pun.

i am writing this at a time when i am very much tired. i know i should be sleeping or resting right now, but there are some urgent matters that need to be attended to immediately. this has been happening for a few days now. I have been reaching home at 10+ for the last few days and have been going to early. Like, at 1-2 am. Havent been touching my homework. In both sense of the word.

I feel like a mess.

There are times when I feel like skipping a day of school. To wake up at 12pm. I'll lock myself up in the room, totally shutting off from everyone. Close the windows. Draw the curtains. Switch on the air-conditioning at full blast. And Blast the 'Noise' we call music. Then, I will rearrange all my colour pencils and my postcard collection according to their colour. Then, I will reorganise my wardrobe. Then, I'll complete my homework. I'll eat in my room. I'll not come out till the next day.

The problem is that I know that I am not such a motivated and disciplined individual. And its virtually impossible to turn my room into Siberia.





Thinking about it, maybe i need a break from people. Its funny, but i tink that i am too nice for my own good.

And I tink I'll just get hurt if i really trust anyone.


People are strange.