Aini was

a girl. Now, she is still a girl but things have changed for her. She used to love doing nothing, just going through the day in a stupour. Now, she doesnt because she doesnt even have the opportunity to do so.

Aini had a blog. She knows that the blog is just a weirdass thing on the net that she can put her writings on to let the rest of the world be a spectator to her thoughts. She wants it to be a connecting connection to all her friends because she thinks they are drifting apart.

But Aini realises that her entries always sounded the same. She liked to complain about her busy, busy day and the mountain of work to be done which was continously growing bigger and bigger just like someone's hair.

So Aini has taken some time off to reflect on herself.

She realises that she cannot survive her life in NJC without her friends. Her friends are all dear to her and she knows that she will be deeply affected even if anything would happen to one of acquaintances.

Aini loves Sokhuang.

And 'Eddie' is Aini's concubine. Or gigolo... Whatever the occasion may call for, 'Eddie' will be there for Aini and Aini appreciates 'Eddie' greatly.

Thus, Aini will now always remember that Aini is very, very far from perfect.

Today, Aini said something which was quite true. An Ideal is just that. It does not really exist. Take for example, Ideal gases. There is no such thing as an ideal gas but we have an ideal gas equation. Ideal fluids too dont really exist.

So. Aini thinks that Ideals do not really exist. They are just unattainable goals that humans like to set, being the thinking beings that they are. And Aini realises that Ideals are very scary and potentially very destructive.

Therefore, Aini has decided that Ideals are ideally good. And thus, Ideals for her should be just that. She will use them to set her goals but she knows better then to be too obsessed with them because she knows of the potential destruction that will cause.

And as such, Aini has decided to reorganise her things. She knows that she has been doing that since she has had things to organise but she justifies her actions by upholding a principle in life.

And that is "Whatever makes Aini happy, its okay."