is this worth doing?

a question of self-worth.

what am i worth?

i read my previous entries.

and i dont like what i see.

sounds childish.

intelligible at some points.

annoying.

i rant and rail.

and complain.

but so far, i dont tink there has been bitchings on this page.

i am looking at my posts from over a year ago.

how things change. my world has been overturned, flipped, rotated, swung all around and beaten into an odd shape. so many things change.

i tink that if u havent talked to me for a month, u'll get a shock when u ask me stuff. that is, if i actually say anything to u.

things are bogging me down. and i do not particularly like makind decisions. when i make decisions, usually they do not require much decision making as there is usually an obvious response to the question.

decisions about my life. decisions about my values. decisions about dinner. sometimes, freedom of choice is unhelpful.

i find it ironic that the human race strive for independence and freedom and then only waste their privileges on frivolous things of the world.

it simply is incomprehensible, these humans.




"when a heart just loses sense of its world, the howls of the winds just gets louder and louder deafening everything within earshot until one cannot even hear oneself think and you wonder whether you are even breathing anymore." -anonymous